Hello.

2010-02-06T05:23:00.000-08:00

You're leaving soon, i'm not looking forward to it.
Come back soon :(

2010-01-30T09:01:00.000-08:00

I love you. I love you. I love you.
I love you so so much.

But i'm not gonna make things difficult for you.

2009-12-03T21:31:00.000-08:00

i dont wanna goooooooooo.
specifically...i just dont wanna leave you :(
I'm gonna miss you so bad. You know it.

idontwannagoidontwannagoidontwannago.idontwannago.

2009-11-26T08:43:00.000-08:00

you drooled on my bag today.
ahahaha!
so kewtttttttttttttt you are((:

Awesome food, awesome company.

2009-11-23T06:08:00.000-08:00

It wasn't me.
But i'm feeling guilty.
Should have been more careful.
Should have known it was coming.
I'm sorry baby...
I'm sorry for making you go through it.
Don't know how i'm gonna face you tomorrow.
But i cannot lie to you so i'll just do it.

2009-11-21T21:42:00.000-08:00

Crazy little thing called love.
And I love you. (:

2009-11-03T21:13:00.000-08:00

heart feels heavy after everything.
im sorry for making you go through all this.
guess its the fear that you wont be there forever like this.
i know there is NOTHING now.
but if there happens to be smth, i hope you'll tell me.
im just sorry.

2009-11-02T21:22:00.000-08:00

i hate myself.
someone just take a knife and stab me.
like a 100 times.

2009-10-12T08:22:00.000-07:00

think i might have to let go soon.
im afraid. hurts.

2009-10-08T10:00:00.000-07:00

stamina's completely gone.
i seriously have to do something about it or else i am going to die soon.
die die die.
and obviously, getting it all back is gonna be crazy. almost impossible.
see if 10 mins is possible again. ahaha.

Anyone wanna go for a run? (:

2009-09-28T07:57:00.000-07:00

I don't like it when you're sad.
Cheer up.

Time flies....

2009-09-22T08:49:00.000-07:00

Need a breakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.

2009-08-26T07:12:00.000-07:00

Damn awesome feeling.
The past two weeks have been totally insaneeeee I just dont know how to put it into words.
Guess i'm just lucky. Too lucky.

You make me have butterflies in my tummy.
Heh-

2009-08-23T09:01:00.001-07:00

Should probably stop worrying and thinking too much.

2009-08-16T06:32:00.000-07:00

i'll just erase that bit from my memory.
i didnt mention anything.
Everything will just be like how it used to be.
Yup.

2009-08-03T07:28:00.000-07:00

I'm just making things difficult.
Chill abit.
This wont be good narmy, this wont be good.

Think before you speak.
But dont take too long-

2009-07-03T03:01:00.000-07:00

Missed my maths test.
That means i've still got to study.

Micheal Owen for Manchester?
OMGOMGOMG dream come true:DDD
Heck that he's getting old.

2009-06-26T07:43:00.001-07:00

I am very sad.

MJ passed away.
Spain is out of the confed cup. (WTF!)
They are just not extending the holidays.

And some other reasons only known to myself.

2009-06-10T09:21:00.000-07:00

Cant understand you.
its okay, call me heartless.

2009-05-23T01:12:00.000-07:00

National schools' A Division Soccer Girls Finals

Season is over. Yesterday's finals marked the end of team 08/09's journey together. I am just so freaking proud of every single one of them. Everyone played their part to get the team this far and though we lost the match, we walked out of the field with our heads held high. As i could have told some people that i might not have played well and stuff, we never gave up till that final whistle though we were 3 goals down. We came back even stronger but i guess things didnt turn out like how we wanted it to. My captain got the Most valuable player award and she deserves it. She kept us going. She kept me going. Suria, im really proud of you.
The J2s arent gonna be there anymore. I seriously dont know how im gonna survive without them. Having spent the last 1 1/2 years with them, growing together as one...it really sucks. I guess only Suria Jacinth and I would know the feeling of it.
The biggest blow is that he's leaving the team. Today was just too emotional and i cant shelp but keep thinking about it. No matter how pissed i could have been with him at times, he's done so many things for me. And i'm grateful for that. He not only thought me to play better football but he's also made me a better person as well. He did more than what he was supposed to do. I regret letting him down. I'm sorry coach. But i really hope you'll be back.

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZOMG.

2009-05-09T05:03:00.000-07:00

Fuck off asshole.
Such a moron.

2009-05-04T08:14:00.000-07:00

The pressure is just too much. I try very hard but its not enough. I get fustrated. And then comes a point where someone tells me to have abit more sensitivity. Have i been really that bad? Its just sad. Why do i always get scolded? Every single thing i do is not good enough, its just bad. I need some encouragement too. Its just not....ahhh forget about all this shit. No one's gonna be able to understand how i feel, so yeah.

No school tmr for j1s cause of e-learning shit. and there's rugby semis against Raffles. All the best! And finally, wed will be our last group match against Raffles too. That will determine who we meet in the semis and hopefully it'll be good. Lets see how.

Upset

2009-03-31T06:08:00.000-07:00

Its just unexplainable. Totally screwed. Anger and lots of fustration. Disappointed with the way i handled things. At this point of time i cannot afford to let my emotions take control of me. I cannot let the people around me down.

Just give me, give us the strength to get through this together. As champions.

And tmr will be a better day.

2009-03-21T09:34:00.001-07:00

The one week march holiday is gonna be over soon just like that and i freaking did nth. Told myself im not gonna be like last year and just idle my time away. But still, i just lazed around. When am i ever going to learn? If i screw up my MSAs, i've got no one to blame but myself. And i'll be getting back shit results for sure. Don't know what to tell my parents. Season's gonna start soon and everything will be damn hectic. I know that i've got to press on and work hard for the next 2 months cause it will be tough with assignments, trainings and stuff.

I just dont wanna go back to school. Quit school and work at macs! Meals provided(:

Stop dreaming and start studying lar!

Narmy's fun facts!
1.) I got new red boots! But its not listening to me ):
2.) I am very tired after doing too many core workout sets. This is what happens if you're not disciplined enough to do it everyday.
3.) I want to cut my hair!
4.) I want to go eat at astons and visit the aunty who tried tickling me. She friendly.
5.) I miss my IA (indian association) friends.
6.) I freaking spent 70 bucks on cab fare this week can someone please please slap me?
7.) I am going to stop coming online during the weekdays so bye friendzzz sms me.
8.) I stepped on my dog's pee again. Maybe tmr's gonna be a good day.
9.) I woke up at 3.30 today though i slept at 1 the previous night.
10.) I feel like eating alot alot alot of chocolates and queensway laksa.

2009-03-08T07:08:00.000-07:00

yesterday was awesome!
thank you friends:D
and it was a good surprise. though i looked damn gross with all that shit.

Awesome cake

Pretty good stuff. You should try.

Unexpected.

it was a good experience.

2009-02-25T05:51:00.000-08:00

The best thing to have done is to just have kept quiet.

realised so many things about you today.

2009-02-21T06:38:00.000-08:00

match today=bad knock which is VERY painful. just when i was telling rup and saro yest that i'm lucky not to kenna any injuries this year. and still got lots to work on:(
scared.

hello classmates please dont be scared of me. i am not fierce. i am very friendly:DDD

lessons starting proper next week and i've got the whole of tmr to complete my assignments. timetable sucks. but i guess its much better than some others.

I AM DONE BLOGGING FRIENDS!

2009-02-06T06:55:00.001-08:00

orientation=waste of time

We decided to be anti-social and just not go for any activities. we just ate, played cards, did random stuff and slept. Even slept for 4 hours straight. Not bad huh. The best part was that our attendance wasn't even taken, so we could've just ponned school.

Suria, Siyi, CI and I painted the field today with the help of asyraf and roland. Asyraf said the boys took about 1 1/2 hrs to paint the field and guess how long we took? 5 hours ahahaha we are the best.

Match tmr against NUS and i've gotta run 3k time trial before that since i didn't complete my run today. How sweet. Just pray that i don't die like halfway through the match. i hope it will be fine cause im not in favour of the probable formation. PENGYOUZ CAN COME AND SUPPORT:D

Lecture timetable for the next 2 weeks. I'm so gonna go for all the lectures and be a model student. SAY NO TO PONNING LESSONS!

BYE FRIENDS!

2009-02-01T07:07:00.000-08:00

i'm gonna hate the whole of next week cause its just gonna be completely useless. i really don't see the necessity in going to school. lessons till 1 and then we just join in halfway like complete idiots? then whats the point of having an orientation? not as though we're dying to go. i want to pon i want to pon i want to pon.

LET ME PONNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-01-11T06:35:00.001-08:00

GODDAMNEFFING SCHOOL STARTS TMR. why? why? why? :(
urgh the feeling sucks man. just hope i dont screw up this year, or i'll screw myself.

AND...good luck to all those getting their results tmr!

2009-01-08T07:48:00.000-08:00

could see it coming.
and still not doing anything about it.

why like thaaaaat?

2008-12-31T07:56:00.000-08:00

Hohoho 2009 is just around the corner!

Happy new year guys(:

And i hope it'll be a good year for everyone!

2008-12-18T07:57:00.000-08:00

Pretty fun day today. Watched vaaranam ayiram for the 3rd time and i'm still not sick of it. heh- Suria, Nishanthi, Rupini and Saro. The company was just great, i couldnt ask for more. Whenever i'm with them, i get reminded of the days back in cedar. Its been a year but I still do miss it. Running along the corridor like some freak, running away from people, chasing suria for god knows what, tamil class, changing in class, sports day, cross country, watching my friends march during ndp, staying back after school for no reason and all the other stuff. There were the good times, as well as the bad ones but it didnt matter. Friends were always around you. Its very sad when you leave after the 4 years, everything changes. yeap everything. Friends whom we were so close to, drift away and become strangers. And we tend to seem a little lost and uncomfortable in our new circle of friends. Its hard to find a true friend. And i could say, though im pretty occupied with soccer stuff, im kinda lost as well though i've become more independent. So i'm thankful for my fellow indians.(:

Tomorrow's trg session is gonna be the last one for the year, so hopefully its gonna be better. Good to see that we're improving, but there's still so much more to do and achieve as a team.

12 more days to the end of 2008! omg i cant believe i just wasted my whole year just like that. Seriously, everything was just bad. From studies to soccer to school to friends. 353 days just gone like that. School's gonna start soon and i have to make a change. Hopefully repeating the year would be good and i'll be able to do well cause i really dont wanna regret it. And that would mean, putting my studies 1st, soccer 2nd, going for lectures and tutorial lessons, doing my tutorials and studying for tests which ive not done effectively this year. ahahhaah. I'm taking this as a second chance to prove myself and i want it to be good. So lets see how it goes.

Holidays have been devoted to soccer and hence, no time for myself. Brother just left for bintan/bali/??? Idiot. Friends have flown away to faraway places. Sian leh saranya can you like hurry up dont need to go ard in your maatu vandi lar. Will be going for the sing viet match, banner painting, meeting up with some classmates, rupini's hse, clementi soccer and the rest of the days would be spent being at home. Have i mentioned that i actually like being at home? Its nice eh.

And yes longest post in awhile. Filled with lots of random thoughts. And also, i wont be blogging much anymore unless i really feel like it or i'm bored or if there's anything interesting. So till then BYE MY FRIENDS!

2008-12-13T07:30:00.000-08:00

omg watching the liverpool hull city match is freaking exciting it has me sitting at the edge of my sofa. omg lp must win. they cannot let chelsea overtake them. OKAY ITS 2-2!

2008-12-03T03:39:00.001-08:00

Bad day.
Such a bad day.

2008-12-02T05:55:00.000-08:00

okay rupini and sarooo fly to china ald. indians trying to socialize with the manjens.
hurry come back yo! dont stay there for too long!

I've always wanted to fly like superman. And so today i stupidly attempted a monkey stunt. And obviously i failed. Flew, slipped and BAM! back hurts really baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad now. But it'll get better. IT BETTER BE FINE.

2 more trgs and standard chartered marathon this week!
can larrrr :P

2008-11-23T03:58:00.000-08:00

Tthe other day weena,wati and i were late for the study session by 30 mins.

Coach: So what you'll wanna do?
Weena: Run before trg tomorrow?
Coach: No do push ups. How many you want to do?
Me: err thirty?
Coach: woah 30 ah? Okay start now
And we went down, preparing to start......
Coach: SPELL TO THIRTY AH
Us: Huh?
Coach: O-down, N-down, E-down ONE-down
Us: WTF?!?!?!?!

And so we did 240 pushups in 10 mins. We just died.
Moral of the story: Dont be late when coach is around.

Yesterday we helped coach to paint and fix the rocks on the rockwall at his office.
Supp to go crabbing after that at serangoon but stupid siyi brainwashed gwen and weena to go east coast. WAH LAO :(
and so i just went home.

Vietnam tomorrow.
I want to come back quickly.

2008-11-21T06:18:00.000-08:00

Ohhhh such a cutieeeeeeee!
ITS PINK! ahahah.

study session today was very ineffective and all of us shared the same feelings on how useless these sessions actually are. had lunch and headed to bowen for trg where we has a surprise friendly match with the soccer girls there. YES SIYI I SAW YOUR SHOT BOUNCE OFF THE GOALPOST DONT WORRY AHAHA! AND WATI I SAW IT AGAIN OMG! PPL PLEASE WEAR PADDED SB TO AVOID VTs OKAY! had dinner and then went back home. THE KOPI GIRLS ARE LEAVING FOR VIETNAM THIS MONDAY! ((: and my mum insists on sending me off. she's afraid i will take the wrong plane. WHAAAAAAT! she just makes me feel like a kiddo.

there is 10k run in the morning tomorrow i am very tired.

2008-11-19T05:27:00.000-08:00

WELL DONE SAINTS!
we'll just get better at this.

2008-11-18T06:14:00.000-08:00

gym trg can make your calves BURN. BURN BURN BURN.
i pray no one suffers from muscle ache/cramps/stiffness tmr for the lovely game tmr.
COME ON MY KOPI GIRLS!

2008-11-15T06:52:00.000-08:00

my mum wants the puppy out and its so irritating. why cant we just keep it? its damn cute. not fair not fair. i hope puppy can stay- after my brother convinces my mum. :(((((

2008-11-13T06:26:00.000-08:00

was wondering how come life's been treating me rather fine recently.
AND NOW I FEEL LIKE SHIT.
SHIT OKAY SHIT.
just unfair.

i am not happy.
i am fustrated and disappointed and disgusted and URGHHHHHH!!!

2008-11-06T07:27:00.000-08:00

Obama.
HELL YEAH.

2008-10-27T08:24:00.001-07:00

To my fellow indians, HAPPY DEEPAVALI! ((:

today was just damn slack. woke up just in time for lunch (oops), relatives coming over, grandma's place and all those usual stuff.

Didnt really do much preparing like cleaning the house and all. All the trainings, pw shit (DIE YOU BITCH, DIE), watching all the tamil programmes on tv and of course the 2 big matches. Man U-everton game was such a disappointment btw. Ferdinand was totally in lala land i think. Phil neville was being an ass. To actually think that he was from man u. disgust- OHHH! i am getting the oh so pretty blue jersey together with jojo! yes ahhhh! cant wait cant wait!

OP this friday. My speech is just too long and ive got to do smth fast. Ahh and there's the meet the parents or whatever shit thingy. I would just love to leave this shithole place, but something's just making me stay. for now, im just looking forward to next sat.

Omg the colour just soo sexyyyyyyyyyy i cant take it. OOooooOOOoooOOO SHEESH!

why my boots havent spoil? still in good condition expt for the colour. Im gonna be a good kid and buy boots only when my red ones are like in damn terok-terok condition. :) NO MORE RED BOOTS FOR ME! Red just attracts too much of unwanted attention. should never be outstanding. RED BOOTS KUAI TIAN SPOIL LEHHHHHHHHHHH!

okay bye me ishhhh beeling sooo sianzzzzz 23546.

BUAI BUAI!

2008-10-14T07:15:00.000-07:00

And for those who keep asking if im fine...
Yeah im not exactly happy.
But, please don't ask me anything cause i just dont wanna answer anyone.

2008-10-11T09:52:00.000-07:00

eh tiny,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY(:
trying my best to be normal. dont wanna ruin your special day cause of me.

2008-10-08T22:47:00.000-07:00

Still dont understand why im so affected by it since i could see it coming.
ahahah quite funny ah.
just gotta wait and see what happens.
just quit school lar!

2008-10-04T21:42:00.001-07:00

i am doing WR now.
anw cant do much since i'm partially handicapped. ahaha
feel like a vegetable.
so im gonna be a good girl and spend my sunday doing PW.
ohsoawesomeeeeeeee(:

i love you peeeeeeeee w
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2008-10-04T08:56:00.000-07:00

okay so promos is like over but i dont really care cause i know how well i did. being positive for the people around me. hah funny funny. and PW can go suck balls cause its really wasting everyone's time. i dont know why the hell pw even exists. EoM is finally over and now gotta rush WR. piss me off only. going to school is a chore. and the stupid fencing session=freaking sore thighs

now that we're resuming trg and all, its supp to get better. but sadly nope. guess its just the people. nothing can be better than this season's team. miss it quite bad. oh wells. game against some women's law shit thing. not happy ah. everything wanna complain. no wonder they're lawyers. played like shit today. no ball sense. muscles being sore aint a valid excuse. zhao sia so many times. paiseh. but anw thanks to the J2s for coming down to watch us play. and apparently trg next week is gonna be like this:

Monday-fitness
Tuesday-gym
wednesday-field
thursday-gym
friday-field

woah k thanks.
oh yeah and there's a soccer trip to vietnam. i guess im looking forward to it.

and i've got a puppy now its so cute! yeah i know i hate dogs, but this one puppy only! its eyes are still like closed and it cant even walk, it crawls ard and squeaks. ahahaha. and my bro insists that its 'toilet' shall be in my room. idiot. but its a fat puppy. looks like a guinea pig.

yeah tamileh outings soon! cant wait to go to rupini's new hse. lilac rd yo! coolshit. and thats the only thing im looking forward to. more outings plzzzzzzzzzz.

im so sleepy. but saranya says i must update. i guess this is long enough and irrelavant too. and hurry study for your chinese lar! k i want to sleep. dont disturb me.

2008-09-27T10:46:00.000-07:00

its a painful decision.
but i know its for the better.
please be okay.
heart of steel-

2008-09-05T09:23:00.000-07:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l-8Ihsccknw&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_pj2Nutu5v8&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W-SkkSpfyjo&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T57XcaZ3vBg&feature=related
(must watch must watch!)

just some random videos again. heh-

2008-08-10T08:05:00.000-07:00

Chen Siyi. you are seriously FULL OF SHIT.
i still cant believe you totally forgot about me and just left after promising to have dinner together.
WAH LAN EHHHHH MAKE ME WAIT THERE LIKE A MAD WOMAN!
you manjen.
ahahahah kidding kidding.
dont worry i still love you worxzxzx!

omg this siyi...
she's such an unglam shit.
she walks like an ah beng.
sits like an ah pek.
talks like a mat.
always checking her hair.
sleeps with her mouth open.
gossips like an indian.
always kenna constipation.
she thinks she's very pretty.
but the brother more goodlooking.
AHAHHAHA!

SEE I TOLD YOU. JUST LOOK AT HER.

but actually this unglam shit is a very nice girl.
a captain i can count on and talk to about ANYTHING.
a teammate i enjoy dancing with on the field though its just the same step done 1000000 times.
i would say some other stuff..but then later i paiseh... so its okay lar.
i can just keep laughing when im with her and the rest of the soccer girls.

2008-08-03T06:17:00.000-07:00

KUNJIMON RETURNS!!!

things have been good, except for my studies.
(what's new eh? ahaha.)
new people. unexpected old ones.
so weird.
let's just wait and see.

2008-07-13T06:25:00.000-07:00

I WANT MY PADDLE-POP! :(

2008-07-08T05:15:00.000-07:00

to feel disappointed.
to feel happy that i know.
to feel sad/happy that we've carried on.
to feel relieved.
i dont know.

selfish thoughts.

fucked up.

2008-07-06T08:40:00.000-07:00

why are you behaving this way?
i just dont get it.

getting tired.

2008-06-29T01:07:00.000-07:00

If you knew you were going to die tomorrow, what would you do today?

2008-06-28T08:42:00.000-07:00

FUCK THE WORLD.
I HATE ALL OF YOU.
EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU READING THIS.
GET LOST. I DONT NEED ANYONE OF YOU.
DONT TALK TO ME.

2008-06-28T08:14:00.000-07:00

RONALDO YOU SWINE.
And if this guy doesn't leave manchester united next season, i will officially become a liverpool fan.
seriously. that is how much i hate that disloyal faggot.

zhi en's place is freaking awesome btw.
dream house. omg.

today you might like milo.
but tomorrow you will like Milk.
cause you're sick and tired of the same old milo taste and there is no more kick in it.
Milk tastes so fresh and good.
and sooner or later you'll forget about milo.
bye milo.
bye narmadha.

2008-06-27T08:55:00.000-07:00

THE ORANGE BAGS UNITE!:D

2008-06-27T05:32:00.000-07:00

just found out smth about you.
wish i didnt know.

2008-06-26T08:01:00.000-07:00

and yesterday was sucha coincidence (:

2008-06-21T05:42:00.000-07:00

this one quite funny.
ahahaha.

eh jamie you damn gross today.
seriously. ahahhahah!

funny feelings-

2008-06-19T08:31:00.000-07:00

Saranya says that she's hotter than Mallika Sherawat.
: faints-

trg tmr. oh no.
i dont know why there's trg.
but nevermind, still got smth else to look forward to.

you know its not wise to get involved. but still...
heart over the mind.

2008-06-16T09:22:00.000-07:00

"Ball deflects off Suria's chest and rebounds to Narmadha
Emcee/commentator/woman-with-big-mouth: WOW that was an excellent chest pass!
HAHAHAHA WTF" - siyi's blog.

hahahha yes! this was during diva. omg damn funny.
some opponent like took a shot and suria blocked it with her chest and it just bounced off since it was too powerful. should have seen suria's face man!
AHAHHA FREAKING FUNNY!
and the commentators were going on debating about the chest pass.
tried my best not to laugh. it was just sooo stupid.

water soccer is the best. you should go try it.((:

2008-06-13T09:13:00.000-07:00

This loser here is scared of Friday the Thirteenth.
Hahahaha.
She laughs when people say stupid things but she's really damn retarded too!

She attracts weird kids who wave continuously (and creepily) without smiling.
But that's because she's one weird kid too.
Weird kid with manjen hair.

To her PW group-mates:
She worked hard on her WR draft, really really.
She worked till she shouted at her laptop.
.
.
Which led to the shouting at the people in the train.
.
.
Have I mentioned retarded kid?

CHUNKY MONKEY.

2008-06-12T01:09:00.000-07:00

it just doesn't make sense.
first you say something and the next minute you're against me.
i'll just wait and see.

2008-06-10T06:55:00.000-07:00

ahahaha that's coach's son josiah.
he's damn cute!
he was telling us about the kung fu panda story and suddenly he stopped talking to us and he like starting singing "its too late to apologize"
?!?!?!?!?! wthhh ahahaha.

and...
this is a classic example of a wound over a healing wound.
moral of the story is that i should stop sliding unnecessarily.

im very tired.
there is trg tmr.
:(

since you've said it,
you're expecting an answer now eh-

2008-06-08T06:38:00.000-07:00

narmy is sad.
i am missing my mummy already
BAHHHH:(

okay so im glad things are all fine now.
all time high! :D
hopefully it'll remain like this at least.
i'm sure im not asking for much.

anw, though season's over,
trainings have been rather tough.
CORE TRAINING! = PAIN PAIN PAIN!
i want to improve, but its just not the right time i guess.
and im becoming too lazy.

i've got such lame teammates btw.

suria : "have you watched the movie constipated?"
us : "no"
suria : "you know why, cause it never came out ! "

wati : "eh jolenaaa you cut hair ah?"
jolena : "hmmm no la, it just grew back into my scalp."

WTH?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
i want to kill myself.

bullying wati can be quite fun too :D
wati so cute!

anw, ******* is dying to see me.
comon i know you love me too much.
chill ah. dont tension!!!
ahahahhah! and now im gonna get killed.

sometimes, its better to keep some stuff to yourself.
cause if you let it out, it can go either way.
better not take the risk-

2008-06-01T05:14:00.000-07:00

go watch if you've got nothing else better to do
just some babies/kids:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cXXm696UbKY&feature=related (super cute!)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FiNUkDnDMFA&NR=1
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b4R-Dx5RaS8&feature=related ( ahahahha this one FREAKING funny)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i9WmKre5O2I&feature=related

anw this was siyi's subnick: THEY ARE MAILING CA RESULTS TO YOUR HOUSE!! FASTER INTERCEPT!
OMGXZXZX this is srsly freaking bad. really. no kidding. its really gonna stink damn bad if my dad sees my results. i better do smth about it. LIKE SERIOUSLY DO SMTH.

no 1. i've to get that mail before it reaches my dad.
no 2. i really need to start studying like shit.

i think before i say certain stuff.
and yes. do not talk to me.

2008-05-23T20:45:00.000-07:00

i typed so much.
but i decided to delete everything.

2008-05-20T07:25:00.000-07:00

Its been almost a week.
But bloody shit i just cant get that image out of my head.
There's this sharp piercing pain i feel inside. Hurts.
Just can't help but to watch the video over and over again.
My mind is like constantly filled with 'what ifs'.
Everyone says its okay, but we know its NOT okay.
It did mean alot to me. It meant alot to them.
But no matter how much i talk about it, its not gonna make a diff.
No one knows how i really feel.

Stop talking to me about it.
cause it hurts damn bad.

2008-05-18T23:37:00.000-07:00

i hate being sick.

2008-05-17T04:53:00.000-07:00

oh my.
:(

2008-05-14T07:07:00.000-07:00

guys i know you'll may say its not my fault. but still...
feel that ive let ya'll down.
srsly sorry.
you guys are the best ppl that i can ever ask for.
thanks alot for being there for me. all 24 of you'll and coach.
and thank you annae.

2008-05-11T02:10:00.000-07:00

soccer really keeps me away from all the other shit.
i dont know what im gonna do after wed when the season ends.
srsly.
i would have to literally drag myself to school ald then.
dont wanna think about it.

2008-05-10T23:08:00.000-07:00

i dont think it'll be of any use.
cause i'm just filled with so much of mixed emotions when i see you.
so i rather just control myself and just keep my mouth shut...
cause in the end, its all my fault right. right?

2008-05-06T07:56:00.000-07:00

excited?
anxious?
maybe abit of both.

so its either a do or die situation.
we have to do this.

YES AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

2008-05-03T21:00:00.001-07:00

went over to maria's place yest.
deb mona maria and marissa were teaching me how to swim.
deb was like holding me while i 'swam' like 2 metres.
almost drowned. so yea.
maria and mona like 'saved' me.
i guess my attempt to learn swimming like failed. seriously.
and they all ended up laughing at me. thank you ah guys!
maybe i should just give up. hahaha!

and no matter what, there'll be 2 more games left.
i want to give whatever i've got. everything.
i hope i'll be able to.
this isnt the time to fool around.

Semifinals.
SAJC vs MJC
Wednesday
Jalan Besar Stadium

BRING IT ON!

2008-04-30T17:46:00.000-07:00

game against rj was bad.
those who had come down to support would know why.
don't wanna say anything else ald.
but im sorry guys i couldnt last even last at least half of the match.
really let ya'll down.
im sorry.

1st was against sr, then against nanyang and now raffles?
when is this going to endddddd?!?!??!!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!?!
i want to play the last 2 matches properly.
ARGH!

and i'm still trying.
but its not working.

2008-04-26T06:55:00.000-07:00

training today was rather long.
but it was rather good i guess.
tiring!
my calf is feeling so sore. nth serious. just that it really hurts.
ohwells.

i was so exhausted that i came back home at around 2 plus, slept and woke up at ard 7.
just in time for the manu game which was so FUSTRATING.
i am not happy.
stupid chelsea. stupid officials.

i've got so much of work to complete and 3 tests to study for.
not forgetting the 2 matches coming up. nanyang and raffles.
i am going to die.

10 mins at the station.
im happy.

2008-04-24T04:49:00.000-07:00

There are times when you know what is bothering you.
You've got no choice but to just deny it.
Honestly, do you still care?

Its just falling apart.
You know it and i know it.
I'm on the verge of giving up cause finally, i dont think anything's gonna work out.
Not that im no trying.
Hate me, will you?

And at this point of time, nothing is more important to me than the season.
I have to be in the right state of mind and play my best game.
Thats the least i can do for the soccer girls.
I dont want to let them down.

2008-04-23T03:56:00.000-07:00

what kind of sports day was that man.
just wasted my bloody time. wtf.
seriously.

and once again i repeat.
SCHOOL SUCKS.
just totally spoils my mood.
im starting to regret.

thanks for keeping me company.
felt much better.
really.

2008-04-21T05:54:00.000-07:00

my 1st game turned out to be really bad.
really disappointed.
i hope this is gonna be my only horrible game.
i promise to perform better next week.
i will i will.
my head really really hurts though.

you. i hope you're okay.
cldnt really sleep cause i was quite worried.
but yea, cheer up.

school sucks. i hate school.
i dont like going to school.

2008-04-20T04:09:00.000-07:00

the feeling of playing at jalan besar tomorrow will be like FWOAH!
just awesome.
looking forward to it, even if i'm just playing for awhile.

saranya is REALLY mean.
like srsly.
:(

2008-04-19T02:14:00.000-07:00

first match against Hwa Chong.
4-0.
good game girls.
we'll do better in our upcoming games.
and i hope i'll be able to play on monday.
I WILL BE ABLE TO. I WILL I WILL!!!
yesahhhhhhhh!

saranya is so mean!
stupid girl.
you wait. you just wait.

2008-04-16T06:24:00.000-07:00

Thats the fixtures.
Okay lar can see quite clearly.
Wah i can feel the pressure ald.

keep the distance to avoid pain.

its good for you and me.

2008-04-15T07:40:00.000-07:00

I still hate going to school.
But what makes me wanna go is just soccer, and my lovely friends nish, rupini and suria.
((:

I'm freaking tired. And pissed.

saranya. a pocketful of sunshine(: says:
i am dumb.

HAHAHAHAHA!

4 days.
We're in.

2008-04-13T07:00:00.000-07:00

HELLOOOOOOO GORGEOUS!

((((((((((((:

2008-04-12T07:58:00.000-07:00

the fixtures are out.
coach will be probably announcing it on mon during trg.
but its highly likely that we're playing:

19th April - Hwa Chong
21st April - Serangoon
28th April - Nanyang
30th April - Raffles

So rightfully, our season's only starting next Saturday.
Still a long way to go? Dont think so.
Its just 7 days-

Go saints!
BLUE SKY!

2008-04-11T06:24:00.000-07:00

it just sucks when you've gotta say goodbye.

don't go-

2008-04-09T07:25:00.000-07:00

Hate myself for this.
Season is like starting next week.
what shit damaged ligament all.
Comon lar. Dont do this to me.
Not for now at least.
get lost.

its what i've been waiting for-

2008-04-07T06:25:00.000-07:00

stupid pics arent appearing.
WHY WHY WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

2008-03-27T06:35:00.000-07:00

How i wish i didn't have to see you ard.
My sickening luck.
Damn it.

I am very tired.

2008-03-20T09:57:00.000-07:00

Didnt go to school today for lessons cause of my "rashes".
ahahah.
eh but really ah. i've got some really bad rashes on my thighs and arms.
but i went back to school at ard 6 for trg.
didn't exactly train, but played a game.

most of the jerseys finally arrived and we got them today.
and im DROWNING in it though its S size.
my number is 20.
okay lar, im fine with the number that's given to me.
after all, its how you play that matters. right?
marissa said that 20 will make me look fatter. hopefully it does lar.
ahahah-

i've got lots of work to do.
so many tests coming up. maths, econs, bio.
have to revise chem like shit. i hate chem i hate chem i hate chem!
with the season less than a month away (april 16th), its gonna be quite tough for me.
GO NARMADHA! PERSEVERE!

really hope we'll be able to retain the title this year. but its not gonna be easy with other schools(i have to choose my words wisely) training twice as hard and wanting to win the title.
BUT I STRONGLY BELIEVE THAT WE CAN DO THIS.
all we have to do is to stay as a team, give a 110% effort during trgs and have faith.
comon girls, we'll do this together.

2008-03-14T07:47:00.000-07:00

rainy day.
mud in your hair, eyes, mouth, ears, fingernails, shirt,shorts, bra, tights.
huge skillful godzilla sized opponents charging at us.
but it doesnt matter.

had lotsa fun during teen games though.
we didnt win, but managed to get a decent 4th place finishing.
bishan arsenal got 1st and they had their nigerian import player as usual.
somehow they look like the characters from the alien vs predator movie. hahaha oops!
we( j1 soccer girls) had the chance to get to know everyone else more too.
and im glad im enjoying the company.
suria, siyi, marissa, gwen and the rest of them!!!:DDD
its quite scary to know that the season is less than 3 weeks away, cause im sure everyone or at least some do feel rather unprepared or whatsoever. well, i do.
and now that we're made to cut down on trgs, its gonna be much tougher cause there's very little time.
PERSEVERE!

there's the stupid GP essay,econs tutorial, maths tutorial i've yet to do. im not counting chem tut as hmwk cause i've got really no idea wtf the question is asking me. chemistry can kiss my ass. DIE DIE DIE. go and die! wah lau.
CHEM TEST ON MON:((((((
BIO TEST ON WED:(((((
and im going to fail.

i dowan to go to school!

2008-03-11T21:53:00.000-07:00

Love will come through says:

WHERE *** STAY AH

narmadha. tied together with a smile says:

seng kang

Love will come through says:

is that near jurong

narmadha. tied together with a smile says:

HAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

narmadha. tied together with a smile says:

omg SIYI!

narmadha. tied together with a smile says:

seng kang near punggol lar!

Love will come through says:

how i know

Love will come through says:

HAHAHA

my goodness.

Siyi, you're the best lar!

2008-03-07T08:08:00.000-08:00

At times, some things are better left unsaid.

2008-03-05T06:23:00.000-08:00

i dont know what to tell you.

im so confused.

but i know i just made a fool outta myself.

2008-03-03T06:28:00.000-08:00

i really dont like blogging.

school has been quite a drag.

im not really used to it yet, but i guess i have to.

dont really have a choice.

its really exhausting doing it together-soccer, studies and what have you.

hopefully i get adjusted to it soon.

lets just see how it goes.

today was the worst interval trg I ever had.

with stupid stitches and everyone running at ard 1.30 mins per round, it was really pressurizing.

anw, coach announced the final squad for the season.

and i really need to work hard. dont know how im gonna do this.

congrats to those who made it(: